Snow, Spring 2011 semester begins, student teaching on the horizon........

Well it's January---- February is already just around the corner. This semester looks to be the most jam packed yet. 71 hours of observation needed for student teaching, 9 hours of classes, 35 + hours of work required to stay fulltime, TEAC, finished portfolio, PLT test.... kids, bills, house and work. Hubby still out of town, son off at college - just me and cutie pie.

I just hope and pray that I can get through it all with my sanity and my health in tact.

I'm trying to breathe more - take things one day at a time and NOT procrastinate. Get my rest, vitamins, eat healthy.. think positively.

WISH ME LUCK AND ASK GOD FOR HELP AND MERCY! Amen.

thanks universe. vb

Winter Wonderland

Well - I survived Fall 2010 - semester. Not only did I survive but I learned so much! This time next year I will be finishing my student teaching and graduating :) !!!!

Now it's time to rest, relax, get some exercise and fresh air, read, sketch, breath, get organized.

BREATH - BREATH - BREATH.

Mama's got a New BLOG-ITUDE!

Well - where to start. Life could not be more hectic right now.

Son leaving for college in 6 days.

Daughter a junior in high school with a job, boyfriend, active social life and soon to be driving.

Classes starting back for me.

Working fulltime.

Some very scargy inevitable situations are coming to a head and hopefully coming to an end or changing in a way that will create a happier situation for my husband and myself.

And the usual money-worries.

I hope to be able to get used to life's interruptions some day. Just as things seem to settle in to a happy moment some other cog in the wheel slips into or out of place - footholds weaken, ground trembles, fear, worry and anxiety grab your heart, mind and soul to startle your insides to the point of a non-stop nausea.

But in all of this I want to say that I AM AN ARTIST. I seek to be creating, discovering, learning, teaching, opening the eyes of others.

My son is going on his own creative journey and I am watching him closely. I want to learn from him. My daughter is also my teacher. She is educating me in the world of nurturing. I have nurtured them both with my body, my mind, my soul, my heart and every cell of myself and now they are teaching and nurturing me.

Thank you God for the blessings ~ and those to come!

summer cold.....

Well OK it's not actually summer yet but I do have a yucky cold. My daughter had it first, even though she didn't seem like she felt this bad though - :P. She said this morning though that she DID feel this bad. :(

So much is happening right now - spring is bringing new birth. I always think of May and late spring in terms of birth because both of my children were born in May and I was born at the end of June.

My son is graduating from high school in just a couple of weeks. He is being born again to the world in a new way - as an adult. With this new birth comes a new kind of letting go for me as a parent. I know it will be similar to child birth, painful and exciting, scary and exhilarating, tearful and joyful.

My son is an amazing person and an inspiration to me to keep working at what I want. He works hard and keeps pushing himself toward his dreams and goals. There were sticky points during his boyhood but we worked through them together as a family.

Part of my heart will go with him to college in the fall. I feel so blessed to be part of his life. I have always felt that my children were a gift from God and that it was my responsibility to help them grow into decent human beings. Especially since at the time of their births I did not have a career or even an idea of what I was good at. They became my career. Now I am on to my second career even though it has been hard to figure out -- lots of stumbling of my own, teaching is the only choice for me. I have proven this to myself and art will give me a way to teach others how to improve the world around us.

Springing -----

it's so pretty outside -- sunny for 2, going on 3 straight days...!!!! I feel so nervous like a little kid.

Econ is over, waiting to hear about scholorships for joe, kai is done with swimming and i can't wait to get outside more.

I planning on spending more time outside this year. I think I am going to start walking my lunches when ever possible and enjoying the sun.

Healthier Happier 2010. Let go of the past more... move forward... start spending more time do the things I enjoy.

Rethinking business and entertaining teaching yet again!!!

Why I have no idea except that the idea excites me so much!

... we will see..... more soon.

longing for spring

well i've sort of given up on the house thing. I really don't know if it's the right thing for now.

right now things are too intense. i just want to find space to breath, catch my breath again and persue some recent creative suggestions.

that's really all i have for now

and I can't wait for warm sunshine, flowers and shady spots

Hearts, home ownership and ............

I have been looking at homes to purchase lately. I have seen two that I thought had great potential but ... were sadly disappointments. Boy it's exhausting getting your hopes up. Then there is the question of should you buy a house in this area.. yikes... more to worry about.. and more yada yada yada.

Along with this it's almost Valentine's Day - not really a big deal but I like the holiday just because spring is almost here. I have enjoyed the cold less and less this year. I want it to be warm.

Classes are stressful, work is stressful, I just need some relief. I feel that finally having a house of my own, especially with Joe leaving for college would be a good way to plant myself.

Not much else to say except that I am tired today and need to do some laundry, homework and straighten things up a bit.

sorry this is soooo boring.